Arizona here I come

I guess I’m going to Arizona. They have a really good cancer hospital and they are willing to see me. They are flying me out on February 25th, 2020. I will be there for two to three days. I have heard they have helped a lot of people and my friend’s friend is one of them. Her mom even went there and they were on board with what her doctor was wanting to do for her. I just pray with all I have that they can help me. I have been in my head. I was questioning my faith because I’m just so done with this shit. I need someone to help me. I have to now travel to another state to see if they can help me. I have a couple of other places I still want to check out but this is where I feel like I need to start. I just feel like all the treatments I did were a waste of time and damage to my body but, then I think that without those treatments I have been through, which was A LOT, that I might not be at the stage I’m at now. It could have gotten worse so it probably wasn’t just for nothing and I am grateful for that. I’m so nervous that they will say they can’t help me after all. I mean, if they didn’t think so, would they be having me fly out there? I hope not. They have been really good so far. They are paying my way and helping me get out there. They have a lot to offer their patients and they seem to work with you. They are also fast-acting. I called them and they answered right away. They then started on everything to get me out there and look, I’m flying out in just a few days. I guess you have to when you have cancer. they even had someone who had gotten treatment there call me to tell me out her experience with them and how they helped her. It’s just insane and crazy. I do have a good feeling like this is what I have to do next. My anxiety and emotions are all over the place. The only time I flew on a plane was when I was 12 and it was to Arizona. I hope that’s a good sign. I don’t know what’s in store for me now but I know it’s life. I know that I will find what I need to heal me from this disease and to again have my life back. I’m scared, worried, angry, anxious, kinda excited and full of, I’m not going down that easy. I will win like I keep saying. I have too much to live for and my time is not up. Arizona here I come.
-Lady Kitsune