AGAIN?

I don’t even know where to begin. I am so beyond pissed off. AGAIN…AGAIN the treatment didn’t “FULLY” work? WHY!!!!! I just want to scream my FING HEAD OFF. I keep going and keep doing what I’m supposed to do but it’s never enough. I’m back to square one. I had a really good appointment just before that gave me hope and this last appointment turned that feeling down real quick. I just want this to be over with. Oh, and the worst part is that my doctor said that there isn’t anything else I can take right now that’s for cervical cancer. I still have cancer. It’s still in the cervix which grew a little bit AND some in one lymph node. To me, it looks like the treatment started working but then stopped and that’s why it’s not in the other lymph nodes anymore. He didn’t specify that’s what happened but to me, it seems like it. At this point, I am just so done and so pissed off. I just want my damn life back. Why are other women beating this but not me? It’s been a year now. I know that it can take time but my doctor gave me no hope this last visit and wants me to do a treatment that’s not for cervical cancer that might help? I don’t fing think so. I am going to look at other places for help now, which he also suggested so that’s a great feeling from your CANCER doctor. Enough is ENOUGH. I have had it, I am done. I’m beating this nasty F****ing disease, even if I have to go somewhere else.

-Lady Kitsune