What’s Next

well…here we go again. It’s just chemo right now. I have to do three different types of chemo. Once every three weeks for 18 weeks. So far so good. I had my first dose of that cocktail and no not the good one. The mission is to get me to go into remission. No cure but its better than nothing. I will have many years left if this works. There is other treatments out there but for now, this is what I have to do. I’ll do anything and everything so….Let’s GO. I’m down. I will no matter what beat this in anyway I can. I know remission means that it will most likely come back but could be years from now and by than you never know what will come out. I felt like my life was over all over again but I know it’s not. I have other options. I even got a second opinion and she said, I’m in this time of day and age and there are other things to do and people are coming out with more and more stuff so it’s not over. I never really thought my life was over because I want to live so bad that I’m going to do what it takes to live. I have Jesus the healer inside of me and he will heal me. I have to keep pushing. I am going to live as normal as I can. I’m going to work out if I can and eat better. I am going to get out and go places when I can. I have been afraid for so long but I need to get out and live. It’s the best way to do it. I love my family so much and they are really what keeps me going. I love my life and I am going to keep it. So for now, I’m going to keep going and live. I will do the treatments and one day, I will ring that bell that says I kicked cancers ass. I can breath for now. Later is always a different story and I know how mine will end.

-Lady Kitsune